speccygeekgrrl42: (busy writing : Russian Holmes)
I just found all of my writing from 2005. I didn't know it was on this computer. I was cleaning up my desktop and looking through folders and there was "Spring 2005" and it's all of my poems and short stories from Creative Writing. All the haiku I wrote for that honors course. All the times I used my roleplaying characters as the basis for classwork.

Love, blood, and rhetoric, right? I hadn't quite made it to rhetoric when I was 20. It was all love and blood. All insomniac rambling, my obsession with the river that ran behind the dorms, birdcries and rejection. A sonnet that I won an award for (and actually I found that award yesterday when I was updating my photo album), my first sestinas (two of which actually made it into my book), at least 20 haiku, and my first villanelle (with a note that said that I tried like twenty times before I got the form to work for me). An aubade and a serenade, both awful romantic tripe. My takeoff on Eliot that made it into my chapbook almost entirely intact the way I wrote it in 2005.

I don't put words together like that any more. I can't make metaphors the way I used to. I've gotten better-- I've gotten a hell of a lot better, I've gotten good enough that I didn't think it was vanity to put together a chapbook-- but it's interesting to see these, to see where I started to learn wordcraft in a setting more devoted to it than a high school English class's poetry unit.

(There are older surviving poems on Fictionpress. I don't like to look at them. They're really awful. My high school writing was embarrassing.)

I'm glad I found these. I wish I had saved the graded poems; I'm sure Dr. Torres's notes would have been helpful if I ever decide to revise any of these. But it's nice to see that I am getting better. I've been working on my way with words since I was a very young child. It's good to look back and realize that the last 24 years have been a steady line upwards in terms of quality, with poetry, at least.

Fiction's a different matter. I don't know if writing just porn can be considered an improvement. But it's good porn, okay? I write pretty good porn. I just haven't finished anything in a long time.


Dec. 14th, 2010 11:56 pm
speccygeekgrrl42: (busy writing : Russian Holmes)
Loose Leaves.

My spy story. Also shameless porn.

It feels really good to have written something I can show to other people. :D
speccygeekgrrl42: (hovering. : Sherlock and John)
Yoinked from [livejournal.com profile] storylandqueen:

1: Give me a number between 1 and 1,577. Your number determines what song you get, which is what the drabble will be based on. However, you may be asked to pick a different number, because I have a decent amount of audiobooks and podfics scattered in with my music.
2: Give me a fandom or a pairing! If there's something specific you want in the drabble, tell me and I might be able to work it in.
speccygeekgrrl42: (busy writing : Russian Holmes)
See, I promised I wouldn't post until 3 and it's almost 8. I did a good job not spamming you all incessantly for the entire time I was punch-drunk awake and endlessly amused at myself. I'm not amused with myself any longer. I got maybe five hours of sleep and all it's done is make me grumpy. I think I preferred being sleep-deprived and giddy.

Anyways, I finished a podfic before I caught my nap. The last of [livejournal.com profile] superkappa's Sweet Charity podfics. This means it's time to do another chapter of History, Repeating Itself, and then onwards to [livejournal.com profile] brighteyed_jill's podfics. I should probably take advantage of the three hours between now and the beginning of the [livejournal.com profile] cox_and_co group-watch of The Speckled Band, which I was more excited about six hours ago than I am now, but that pretty much applies to everything. I slept through the hottest part of the day and part of me just wants to go back to sleep. The reasonable part of me realizes that if I did, a) I would miss this group-watch and I really do want to participate in it, and b) I would wake up at four in the morning and be miserable all day long tomorrow.

I tried to write while I was up. I got maybe three or four hundred words and I dislike most of them. It pains me to scrap any progress I make, but if it's bad writing it's not really progress, is it? Part of me is crying out for a beta-reader to tell me what the hell the point I'm trying to make is, but honestly, nobody cares about this story besides me, and absolutely no one would even notice if I threw the entire thing out. Which I won't, because I really do like most of it, I just lost sight of the story I'm trying to tell.

I think I need a writing Watson icon to replace Mohinder at his desk. I guess I'll look for one of those for the next couple of hours. I'm sure I've seen one somewhere, it's just finding where that's the tricky part. Weirdly, I couldn't find a writing Watson icon, but I did find a writing Holmes icon... which works just as well for my purposes.
speccygeekgrrl42: (absolutely gobsmacked : Ianto)
So I could have gone to bed at a normal, sane time last night...

or I could have stayed up all night writing about Dewey and Parker. Anybody remember them? Well, I do, and I love them, so guess which option I picked.

so if you want to read a little fic called Terms of Endearment, it's over here.

Pardon my poorly-translated Welsh, bee tee dubs. At least there's only a very little bit of it...
speccygeekgrrl42: (*~*special adult party!*~*)
I'm doing the [livejournal.com profile] mmom challenge, as I think I've mentioned before, and even though I'm pretty sure I won't actually write 31 stories, I do plan on doing more than just a couple.

So... does anyone have any prompts for masturbation-centric fic? I can't guarantee I'll use everything I'm given, but I'll certainly take them all under advisement. I'm probably going to cheat and start early on a couple of them, too.
speccygeekgrrl42: (*~*special adult party!*~*)
Oh hey, this will give me something to do tonight and tomorrow... and maybe on the train Friday. Yoinked from [livejournal.com profile] toestastegood:

1. Give me a pairing (or character, or the name of a show) and a prompt (a word, a phrase, a situation, an emotion, a few lines from a song or, hell, even an entire song) and I will do my best to write you a snippet based on your request.

2. Post to your own little corner of LJ offering to write snippets for people, thus spreading the joys of comment porn.

3. Sit back, relax and enjoy the porny goodness. \o/

* You don’t have to offer to write snippets for other people if you leave a request, but it would be fun if you do.

** Snippets don’t necessarily have to be porny, comment fic is just as much fun. As is a rambling stream of consciousness type thing about how character x and character y meet and why they would get on like a house on fire – whatever comes bouncing into your brain is a-okay.

*** If you’re one of those people who have a big old ‘friend of’ list then you might want to put a limit on the number of requests you’re willing to write.

Bonus points are given for AU requests, just so you know. (I might as well go with what I'm good at, right?) No crossovers, though. One request per person, please, and if I don't know the canon for what you ask for I'm totally just going to make up something ridiculous... but don't take that as a dare. :P
speccygeekgrrl42: (doubting Mozzie + Neal : White Collar)
Nobody asked for it, but hell, here it is anyway: a little piece of the Mozzie/Neal fic I should have finished a month ago.

in which it is really freaking cold out )
speccygeekgrrl42: (all work and no play : Mohinder)
Memery stolen from [livejournal.com profile] karaokegal. It's been a long time since I've done a meme like this!

Ask me a question about one of my stories, or about my writing in general. It can be absolutely anything in any fic, and I will answer you as honestly as I possibly can. Don’t hold back. Ask about my plans for future parts of a current series if you want to, or progress on something in-progress that you've gotten an early peek at; just keep in mind that I may not have anything firm/definite in the works. Anything. Whatever you ask, I will try my best to answer.

I don't actually have any current series in the works, but I do have a few WIPs that people may or may not know anything about. General questions are good too!
speccygeekgrrl42: (all work and no play : Mohinder)
Tonight is a crackhead night. I'm all jittery and it feels like my skin is crawling and I just don't think I'll be getting much sleep any time soon.

I'm doing something I may come to regret and downloading White Collar. Everybody seems to have nothing but good to say about it, and... yeah, I really don't need another thing to watch, but everything's going on hiatus for the holidays so I'll have plenty of time to watch it. After I catch up with Supernatural, which will take god only knows how long.

I have gotten to the point where I open my works in progress, read through them, and am actually embarrassed by them. I don't know what's more embarrassing, the fact that I have things I've been writing for four months now that aren't anywhere near complete, or how bad they are. I hate this. If I don't finish something within a week of starting it, it just languishes, and I hate it more every time I look at it, and hate is not a good motivator.

*stabs them all with bamboo skewers and roasts them over an open flame*

I just need to get over this irrational fear of writing poorly and write something. Preferably finishing something already started. Maybe one of these things kicking around from-- dear god, I haven't modified some of these since September. I have been depressed, haven't I?

Oh. I just realized that I'm going to be in Plattsburgh and I won't have the money to get the tattoo I've been wanting. It's probably just as well, I don't know where I want it anyway, but... I really do want to get inked again. I never thought I'd enjoy it the first time I got one, but it's like an addiction. Maybe I'll have enough to get the semicolon behind my ear, and the iris can be my graduation present for myself in May.
speccygeekgrrl42: (geek in action)
I'll be sitting at my computer for the next four hours, so....

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble of ANY pairing/character of their choosing from me (GIVE ME A PROMPT. A legit more-than-one-word prompt!). In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level.

Be reasonable, okay?
speccygeekgrrl42: (creatures of the night. riiight. : TBBT)
Okay! I did not fail my Botany test! In fact, I may have done well on it. Thank god for multiple-choice exams and my finely-tuned wrong-answer-senses.

The lab wasn't even that bad. I was miserable when I woke up but once I got out there walking, it was a lovely day and my professor and classmates are really lovely people to talk to. I identified like six different species of tree without prompting and asked intelligent questions and everything! It was reassuring to reassert my student-fu. I was really worried after missing class a few times, but I am fine. And on Wednesday we're going to plant a tree! That's going to be awesome! I've never planted a tree before.

The reason I was so miserable when I woke up was my inability to sleep until nearly 4:30 in the morning. I had a story rumbling around in my head and finally I just gave in and got up and started typing, and oh my god, I missed doing that so much. So I have most of a story done and I know where to crosspost it and everything! Most of you will be completely uninterested in it, and I don't even mind, because it flowed and it's such a relief to have the words come so easily again. And, you know, I'm all about the tiny undernourished fandoms and rare pairings.

And tonight is Heroes and I'm excited about that! And I think I'm going to watch Big Bang Theory instead of Lie to Me, because Wil Wheaton's on it tonight and that's going to be ~hilarious~.

Thank you to [livejournal.com profile] ozfroggirl for helping me out with my fanmix issues. Anybody else want to help me out? Two more people owe me answers! And you can download it even if you don't want to help, it's good music... I always get sad when I upload things and they only get a couple of downloads. (yes, attention whorish a little bit.)

Ooh, something smells good....
speccygeekgrrl42: (my heart is flame : chibi!Spock)
I didn't finish the last time I did this meme... I think I had seven letters to go or something when I ran out of steam... but that was back in April, so let's give it another go, hmm?

Everyone and their frenemy is doing it, but the most recent is [livejournal.com profile] ladywilde80, so let's call it stolen from her.

1. Pick a letter.
2. Pick a one-word prompt that starts with that letter (ex. K is for Keyhole).
3. Pick a fandom and a character/pairing/platonic relationship.

Fandoms: Heroes, Star Trek, Fringe, Glee, The Big Bang Theory, Pushing Daisies, and if you know I know something else you can try to prompt for it but I won't guarantee you'll get it. (The one thing I'm categorically denying is Torchwood. I'm not on speaking terms with that fandom any more.)

So leave a comment, make sure it's a letter that hasn't been claimed already, and I'll get on writing it in between studying for things this week.

letters... )
speccygeekgrrl42: (canon error: apply fanfic?)
Yoinked from [livejournal.com profile] tiptoe39:

PROMPT ME: Pick one of my icons here and I'll write you a drabble based on said icon.

Still making icons for those of you who asked, still taking requests if anyone else wants one.

I made enchiladas for dinner. Mmm. Probably shouldn't have followed it up with a Drumstick ice cream though. Not the wisest gastronomic decision ever.
speccygeekgrrl42: (#vortex# gaze lowered : Gabrielle Gray)
LAST POST FOR LIKE SIX HOURS I promise, okay? I just am putting this out as a maybe-fun-for-you, maybe-helpful-for-me writing-inspiring thingydoo.

Headvoice CPR. To revive muses and their voices.

Anyone can talk to or role play with any character I write/have written(/roleplayed) here. Just comment!

Alternatively, ask a character a question, any question, and they HAVE to answer completely honestly. Have to. It's the meme rule. Even if they'd normally lie, they suddenly have been hit with a truth serum of some kind and must tell the truth. Mwahaha.

man, now I don't want sleep, I want coffee. NO. BAD.
speccygeekgrrl42: (immune to tribbles: Spock/Kirk)
Wow, it's 9:30 and I can't sleep any more. Damn, that's the best non-drugged sleep I've had in ~ages~.

Er, non-legal-drugged. I think a prescription for anti-insomnia weed would be in order.

ANYHOO today is my day at the Company Picnic! This obviously means it's my writing catch-up day! xD

Aww, [livejournal.com profile] moorishflower just emailed me to let me know that LJ is being a douche and not letting her sign in, giving her "server is not responding" messages. So for everyone that's like "wtf where's Moorish?" that's the haps. (also Tara has a tapeworm, poor kitten!)

Does anyone know how to find out what LJ server you're on? There used to be a link from the site map, but I can't find it and I don't remember the specific html for the page... I want to see if that has something to do with her not being able to get on! Damn you, LJ. Damn you.

Okay self, here's the deal. Finish a Heroes story, and you can work a little on the Star Trek story you want to write. Capice? Capice.
speccygeekgrrl42: (don't give away your heart : Mohinder)
The "You Should Write..." Meme!

my thread here

plz note: this isn't a request thing, it's just what you think I should write, kay? I will take them under advisement, but no guarantees...


yoinked from [livejournal.com profile] karaokegal:

Choose your genre show, answer the questions using episode titles from that show--if possible, don't repeat any.

obviously, I picked Star Trek TOS )
speccygeekgrrl42: (dear lj stardate 4242.4 : Spock)
My desired word count monthly: 20,000
My word count this month, if I don't finish something today: 10,250
My word count last month: 13,340
My word count in April: 15,790

I'm waaaaay behind. o_o; I overdid it in January/February/March and now I'm just pitiful.

Back to writing... if I CAN finish what I'm on, I could potentially hit 14,000 for June.


Edit: New wordcount for June: 13,900! Well, that's better than May!

Edit again: Final wordcount for the month: 14,960! Wooo, that's way better than what it was earlier... and holy crap, I wrote like 3000 words today (I'll admit that a little less than half of the fusion fic was written before)!
speccygeekgrrl42: (here. no okay not here at all. : Cassie)
Okay, I need quick things that can fulfill my twitchy attention span this afternoon. To that end, I am offering up ficlets or mini-tarot readings.

Challenge me to a specific comment_fic Heroes prompt, I'll take the first five I think I can do. (even if they're my prompts, which I wanted other people to fill :P )

First five people to give me a concern will get a three-card spread.

Now, I am going to watch last week's Kings, and stop whenever I get bored to do one of these things. xD


speccygeekgrrl42: (Default)

September 2017

3456 789
1011 1213141516


RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Sep. 20th, 2017 09:39 pm
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios